(Be patient for the italian introduction, hot season makes me lazy, english will resume in a few lines) Ormai sono un po’ vecchio e scrivo biografie incomplete quando mi gira bene, e FIUMI DI DEPRESSIONE DISAGIO E DISPREZZO reali quanto il caldo afoso che mi si appiccica addosso insieme all’aria di questa torbida Milano. E’ tanto che non scrivo piu’ di che succede su Second Life, principalmente perche’ per 2 anni buoni mi sono abituato al concetto che la mia vita fosse — altro. Niente di eccezionale, ma altro. Questo pero’ non mi impedisce di rispondere a qualche domanda di qualche vecchia meme, tutte piazzate in un post solo cosi’ se ve ne sciacquate i coglioni potete ignorare un singolo post, di quelle proposte da Strawberry Singh. Siccome le domande sono in inglese, per purissima pigrizia rispondero’ in inglese.
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- Never have I ever had sex, in Second Life. – I have, and if the right person shows up, it can be a very interesting and deep experience. I’m not a “get naked and jump over the bed” kind of kinkster tho, I prefer detailed text role play.
- Never have I ever visited a sex sim, in Second Life. – I have, and I often am curious to see what can they invent and what kind of people hang out there. I don’t use sex sims in order to find a sex partner tho, because for SOME REASONS I know for sure they can be a very disappointing and boring experience. Or ask for cam, voice, pictures, oh fuck no. I don’t even use voice to TALK. An experience like the one most people can offer there could only be something like: “I’m bored, let’s mock some moron until they cum, I’m going to read some websites meanwhile”.
- Never have I ever been an escort or stripper, in Second Life. – I have never, but if you’re willing to pay to have sex with me, I’m not stopping you! XD I’ve been a dancer in my very first days, and one day a guy paid me 1000l$ just to sit on a poseball and grope the air (he didn’t sit, just took pictures, I still have a snapshot I took because it looked like I was licking the other poseball). It was weird as fuck.
- Never have I ever been in porn videos in Second Life. – I have never.
- Never have I ever done things that may be illegal in the real world, in Second Life. – I have. Thanks to the endless curiosity of my aunt Ash, I actually tried some “drug” that gave you some scripted mouselook hallucinating effects. It was cool but, not so cool. Probably more cool for real drug users, I remember it had spiders, and I heard it’s accurate.
- Never have I ever created an ALT for secret activities, in Second Life.– I have. Nothing that secret tho, one was just for some moments of peace, another one was an avatar I used for service reasons when I used to work in a sim. I still identify in my main avatar so much I really rarely use them at all.
- Never have I ever had a one night stand, in Second Life. – I have, even if it’s something I generally never do, I’m universally curious, if someone seems interesting and asks the right way, I rarely refuse.
- Never have I ever been part of a roleplay community, in Second Life. – I have never. I plan to try because I really love roleplay, but everything I saw until now was, for a reason or another, a bit discouraging. With a very nice exception, a steampunk victorian sim that looked A LOT detailed in both lore and roleplay system.
- Never have I ever discovered a new fetish, because of Second Life. – I have never. Every fetish I have, I already had it.
- Never have I ever done things in Second Life that I wouldn’t admit to my friends or family. – I have never. It was all a very, very interesting introspective and observing experience, under every single point of view. So I’d share every moment I remember of it, with anyone who asks, no secrets (respecting other avatars’ privacy of course, no unnecessary details…), no shame.
2. What would you consider your mission statement for your blog? – I have different blogs. This is just “Random crap about random stuff”, sometimes I need to vent in a restricted area so I don’t piss anyone off, or scare them, or bore them. – Avatar Italiani has a bigger purpose instead, it’s meant to show there are things about other Italian avatars we don’t really understand just meeting them on the road and hearing them talk for a while. Also, there are things we forget, or don’t really think about unless some strangeass moron comes up asking you questions about what is that virtual world to you. I want to make people talk, and think. Virtual Kojishi is a “fashion blog” instead, which is weird because I’m not really into fashion, and it shows. It’s a small rebellion against copycat bloggers who only want stuff for free and end up not even being personal enough to be recognized around. Also their pictures are boring, like nauseating boring, no matter how many accessories they put inside them to try and impress.
3. What would you change about your SLife right now if you could just press a magic button and have it automatically happen? – I want my friends, my lovers and my wife back. I want my brother back, without the devastating damage reality has done to “us”. But if I have to be a bit less mopey and childish, I guess what I really want is to stop feeling like I’m a ghost with no strings attached, no matter how hard I try to attach the right ones. I miss meaningful interactions, in Second Life as much as I miss them in Real Life. I probably don’t need what I lost for it, but yeah, it’s hard to rebuild with other people, for some reason.
4. What topic would you like to see explored in a non fashion blog post? Anything you are curious about and want someone else to do all the research? – Identity.
5. Do you have a point of contact in SL? Someone that a person from your RL knows to contact in case something happens to you or you are unable to get online for an extended period of time? – Yeah, I guess I have a few.
6. What provides you the most inspiration and motivation to keep learning and growing? What keeps you from being held back by the common negativity in SecondLife and elsewhere? – I try to stay positive in general, even if sometimes it’s harder than other times. It’s to keep learning and growing itself the motivation I find to just get my ass up and do it. Stasis is death.
7. How do you deal with other bloggers (who don’t know you personally) that are spiteful towards you? – They almost never have the guts to tell me something negative directly anyway (it’s apparently very hard to deal a problem you have with the person you have the problem with, not only for bloggers) , so I pretend they don’t even exist, and “GG”.
8. What is your advice to those that admire you and what you do, hoping to be able to do some of the same things with as much confidence as you often seem to have? – Nobody is ever all that special on Second Life. You see your myths and your stronger friends like something “superior” to you, but they are not, and I am not. The only thing you need to do to be as “successful” as they are, is to just move and do what inspires you, ignoring every glimpse of fear of failure, and not giving up if you initially don’t get enough attention, it’s a very random thing that could happen anytime later. Remember to do this for YOU, not for being someone, or like someone else, or to getting someone else’s attention anyway. Put yourself into whatever you want to do, and you will never be disappointed. And, appreciation is normal, but don’t be a fan, it’s stupid. When I was a younger avatar, I used to LOVE the works of Maliske Misfit, the owner of Rock Candy, one of the first gothic fashion creators in the whole Second Life, together with Synful and Gothico. His ao was my first ao, and has poses I will forever love, even now, 9 years after. His avatar was *BEAUTIFUL* like none really managed to be at the time. One day, I met him, and he contacted me, I was a bit surprised, but not as surprised as I was when I read what HE wrote, he, one of the “bests”! “Oh my god, Kei, I follow you since forever, I always loved your photography. ” — So yeah, do what you can do, people you admire can actually be your admirers. And don’t fear to talk to them, never.
9. Name 5 favorite events in Second Life. – Oh god, no, not events please.
10. Name 3 of your favorite blogs. – To be honest, I don’t follow blogs all that much. Even Strawberry’s one, I only occasionally check it. My friends rarely write, I follow them but I don’t really feel enthusiastic about following blogs, I’m a horrible person, because I write a lot, but rarely even read what other people write. I casually search for travelling guide kind of blogs on google, I don’t really need to save them, and it’s not important what the person says about the place, I only see if the picture inspires me to visit. I hate fashion blogs with a passion because I think they mostly make people copycats, and I don’t have patience enough to go and grab every freebie I see in freebie blogs, like oommg I have to go in that laggy place and search, fuck it. When I find them, I like personal and thoughtful blogs. Then again, I read and forget, and I wouldn’t be offended even a bit if this happened to me from my readers anyway.
Two online screen names you’ve had: Keishiro H. Yukikaze, and CARELESS BANANA TEAM. Yes.
Two video games you’ve played: Lately I’m into SWTOR because it’s well made, nothing to say. When I need to relax I play Path of Exile even if it isn’t a top-tier videogame, it just does its work to make me mindlessly kill everything.
Two things you love about Second Life: Conversation with people, self expression.
Two things you’ve done in Second Life: Photography, Community manager.
Two things you still want to do in Second Life: Photography, and probably start some art project with other artists too.
Two things you like about your Second Life avatar: 1 – He looks alive. Never a copy of anyone else, and always expressive even if his head doesn’t ever change expression. He talks about himself even without saying a single word. 2 – He is everything I have “inside”, right there, for everyone to see, and 2bis/justkidding- HE HAS A PENIS omg omg omg *streaks around with a boner*.
Two of your Second Life Pet Peeves: 1 – Drama: I know everyone says so and then they’re the worst bitches, but seriously, people can be really obnoxious about everything, on Second Life, they just never chill. 2- Griefing: Never good when innocent people is involved, and I really hate to end up in the middle of it. Even if life has taught me a valuable lesson, twice, about people who make a mess over the internet, first making me grow up with them, then making me fall in love with a person who once was a griefer <.<
Two things you did as a newb that you’re embarrassed of: Sorry, no shame here.
Two of your closest friends in Second Life: Oh no don’t make me do this because everyone else will randomly feel offended and I don’t even want to think about it.
Two of the most beloved things in your inventory: Pictures, and logs.
- Have you ever been subjected to mean comments online by strangers? If not, then skip to question #5. – Look, 9 years of Second Life, someday I woke up and everyone in Italian community knew who the fuck I was (but not really), I still don’t get how could it happen. At the time, I used to be a moderator on a forum, I used to be a photographer, I used to socialize a lot and show up a lot in the art scene of SL. I’ve been criticized A LOT, but almost NEVER directly, it was mostly negative gossip, if we set aside the constant stupid drama that happened on the forum. A very few people really had the guts to be mean to me, especially if they didn’t even know me.
- How did you respond to them? – They were mostly random trolls I burned or ignored without even making an effort. There is no point in considering as valid points stuff people who don’t even know you try to blame or shame you for. It’s as simple as that, if you don’t know what you’re talking about, don’t talk about it.
- How did they make you feel? – Like I was oppressed and attacked by people because they are bored or frustrated in the outside world. Not fair, but one must try and be patient, while not forgetting to draw a line they should never dare to cross again. I’m not really interested in being loved by randoms anyway.
- Can you share some of the mean comments you’ve received and your thoughts on them? – Huh-huh, never feed trolls, let them die unnoticed.
- Have you ever ridiculed or negatively commented on someone else’s work, actions or personality with the intention to hurt them? – Ok, I am NOT a good person. I can be patient, loving, caring, understanding, but also a very difficult kind of dickhead to handle. I can be very hurtful, VERY hurtful, I’m not here trying to look like a saint. But, in my defense, I can say I never, even once in my life, tried to be hurtful just for the kick of it, there was ALWAYS a good reason for me to verbally attack anyone, if anything because I spent a half of my life being verbally abused for no reason, and I would never do that to anyone else.